either give your everything to somebody or don't bother to give anything at all.

hung out with vivi today and gonna go shopping with her tomorrow :) .. so i went to get my contacts checked today and that dude told me i dont even need them anymore but then he said hes gonna order me new ones ..um wtf?! i didnt get that at all but whatever haha it was kinda weird. theeeeen i have a doctors appt thursday and going out with my ladies and lukas friday night, hopefully gonna be fun. i have to read 2 books in a week and i really dont feel like doing that haha. watching 'x factor' right now and probably gonna get ready for bed pretty soon cause i have to get up kinda early. soo good night world.

..oh how i miss you.

please don't let us drift apart.

room is finally finished!
went shopping with jacky today, it was fun :) ..going to ikea tomorrow!
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almost didnt sleep at all last night, i couldnt stop crying for some reason, it was just great but whatever. i dont feel good. why do i keep screwing everything up?

just great..

i dont feel too hot right now, slept for like an hour and should probably just go to bed. i didnt take pictures of my room yet, maybe tomorrow or later, i dont know. had a great time with vivi today tho. not sure what im doing tomorrow, i should probably look at my phone but thats upstairs and i dont have enough energy to go there haha. feel like crying and im tired, so im going to bed pretty soon, good night.

4 months!

i pretty much finished painting my room today, glad its done. i wish my room wasnt that big haha. but jacky, paul and my mom helped me and vivi is gonna be here tomorrow to finish it completely. ill probably gonna put some pictures on here then too ;)
just 4 more months and im back 'home', cant wait to see everybody again! :)
im really tired tho, so im gonna go to bed pretty soon. good night, world.

 just some super sexy pictures hahaha :D

i don't wanna believe you anymore, i'm so scared you're gonna let me down.

Been up all night
Staring at you
Wondering what's on your mind
I've been this way
With so many before
But this feels like the first time
You want the sunrise
To go back to bed
I want to make you laugh
Mess up my bed with me
Kick off the covers
I'm waiting
Every word you say I think
I should write down
I don't want to forget
Come daylight
Happy to lay here
Just happy to be here
I'm happy to know you
Play me a song
Your newest one
Please leave your taste on my tongue
Paperweight on my back
Cover me like a blanket
Mess up my bed with me
Kick off the covers
I'm waiting
Every word you say I think
I should write down
I don't to forget
Come daylight
And no need to worry
That's wastin time
And no need to wonder
What's been on my mind
It's you
It's you
Every word you say I think
I should write down
Don't want to forget
Come daylight
And I give up
I let you win
You win 'cause I'm not counting
You made it back
To sleep again
Wonder what you're dreaming

i watched 'dear john' and i pretty much just cried the whole movie. i cry every single time i watch this movie haa. i'm gonna go to bed pretty soon it's 2 already.. paul and i went out to eat with my grandma today, gonna be at my grandparents tomorrow, mom is coming home thursday, gonna go shopping with seb friday morning and going out friday night. hopefully gonna be fun even tho i'm not toooooo excited right now.

this time last year i 'made it' through my first week in the us and you don't even know how much i wish it was last year.. 

it is the distance that makes life a little hard, two minds that once were close now so many miles apart. in a way its all a matter of time, i will not worry for you, you will be just fine.

it is 3 in the morning and i'm a little tired.. so i'm back at my moms since sunday night and my brother and i are home alone, uuuh but it's going surprisingly well. my mom will be back thursday afternoon that's not too bad then. i did laundry today ..oh i hate it haha. my grandma wants to do something tomorrow soooo paul and i are gonna be good grandkids and make her happy haha.
i caaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan't wait to be back, but 4 months seem so long.. i miss it so much.
but i suppose it's bed time now, good night.

italy | pictures

you're worth it.

sooo i just got back from italy yesterday and i figured i should post haha. i dont have all the pictures on my laptop yet, ill post them as soon as i do. it was really fun and i actually got tan haha. but it was over way too fast. im at my dads this week and going back to my moms next sunday.

 our hotel







..more pictures to follow ;)

i miss you, but you know that.