soo ive been doing a lot of thinking today and yesterday, this is gonna be kinda weird haha okay. im not sure if you guys are gonna understand what im trying to say but whatever. i just feel like my two worlds dont seem to fit together very well anymore. i cant really find the right words to explain this but i pretty much live in the future where i can be who i wanna be again and be with the one i wanna be with and i just hope that this 1 1/2 years go by fast. but on the other hand im just soo fricken scared to leave everyone and stuff.
there are days when everything is fine and then there are some days that im just scared we arent gonna work out and oooh its just not a good day today haha i feel like im not doing anything right and i dont know, i feel wrong.
watched 'footlose' on the plane back to germany and just love this song.
good night.
