i don't wanna believe you anymore, i'm so scared you're gonna let me down.

Been up all night
Staring at you
Wondering what's on your mind
I've been this way
With so many before
But this feels like the first time
You want the sunrise
To go back to bed
I want to make you laugh
Mess up my bed with me
Kick off the covers
I'm waiting
Every word you say I think
I should write down
I don't want to forget
Come daylight
Happy to lay here
Just happy to be here
I'm happy to know you
Play me a song
Your newest one
Please leave your taste on my tongue
Paperweight on my back
Cover me like a blanket
Mess up my bed with me
Kick off the covers
I'm waiting
Every word you say I think
I should write down
I don't to forget
Come daylight
And no need to worry
That's wastin time
And no need to wonder
What's been on my mind
It's you
It's you
Every word you say I think
I should write down
Don't want to forget
Come daylight
And I give up
I let you win
You win 'cause I'm not counting
You made it back
To sleep again
Wonder what you're dreaming

i watched 'dear john' and i pretty much just cried the whole movie. i cry every single time i watch this movie haa. i'm gonna go to bed pretty soon it's 2 already.. paul and i went out to eat with my grandma today, gonna be at my grandparents tomorrow, mom is coming home thursday, gonna go shopping with seb friday morning and going out friday night. hopefully gonna be fun even tho i'm not toooooo excited right now.

this time last year i 'made it' through my first week in the us and you don't even know how much i wish it was last year..