author of the moment, can you tell me? do i end up, do i end up happy?

there's a hole in my heart, getting bigger every day. never knew missing you would be this hard. 


i just wanna be back in america, i'm realizing so many things that are better over there ..kinda getting sick of this. 85 days, just be over now :'(

sooo my gay spanish teacher from cuba gave us this stuuuupid assignment to write a summary. in spanish. 200 words ( i don't even know 200 words ?!). and i didn't even read the book cause it was in spanish. i can't read books in spanish ?! ..but i finished it, probably all wrong but whatever haha.
just gonna go to bed now .. not even excited for the weekend, more excited for my biology exam on tuesday.. fun stuff.

i'm torn to be right where you are.

okay, im listening to this song ^ the whoooooooooole time and then it makes me cry, so well im crying haha.

'just' 87 days, please go by really fast ..

just had 4 classes today, tht was pretty sweet. then had drivers ed.
just have 5 classes tomorrow cause i have to get an mrt to find out whats wrong with my back.
gonna go to bed pretty soon, kiiinda tired and dont feel very good.

Light a way, on my love

Light a way, from above. 

Shine it down, lead me home,
Back to him.

A night away, and we've got a few to go.
And I've mastered the art of missing, and my smile lacks a glow. 

i need you.

sooo i wrote my stupid latin paper for almost 3 hours and its still not done, i mean really!? this thing is kinda pissin me off a little haha. then i had to do german and i gotta do math and spanish tomorrow, not doing anything else except fricken homework all weekend. going to my dads tomorrow at 1 to help my cousin and be back at 6 and after tht just gonna do homework, fuuuuuuuuuuun. got the first 3 hours off on monday, so i get to sleep 2 1/2 hours longer :) and i just have 4 classes, thts pretty sweet. but im tired from all this hard work haaha and going to bed now. good night world.

90 days <3

91 days.

happy birthday :) hope you had a great day! <3

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just not gonna say anything bout this night..

half time! :)

sooo went to see a doctor again today and didnt go to school. he said i need to get a mrt and then go see him again. the mrt is next week wednesday and i cant do anything about the pain and stuff, just suck it up! so thts what im gonna do then haha. im going back to school tomorrow tho, i cant and dont wanna miss a lot of days this year.
95 days left! :)

the sky is grey, just like my heart.

fuuuuun weekend, back hurts = i cant move/ sleep. i miss you = crying. writing a paper for latin = boreeeeeeeeed as hell. and i just have like a bit over a page and i need like 5.. ugh.
but vivi came over for a bit today, so tht made my day better.
school tomorrow, yaay and should probably go to a doctor again but dont really have time for tht, so we'll see about tht one.
hope everybodys having a greeeeat day.

won't tell anybody how you turn my world around, i won't tell anyone how your voice is my favorite sound.

 just went shopping with vivi and jacky today :)
..i'm soo tired ._. i really dont know why, but im taking a nap everyday after school and dont even go to bed that late. but whaaatever. gonna go to bed pretty soon, soo good night.

baby if i've got you, i don't need a parachute, you're gonna catch me if i fall.

someone like you.

had the first 2 hours off today, so i could sleep 2 hours longer than usual but i guess that wasnt enough so i kinda overslept; my alarm went off at 7.25 and i just turned it off and slept 20 min longer and just had 20 mins to get ready haha i looked just amazing ..NOT. my mom is driving us to school tomorrow so i can sleep a little longer again :) and going shopping with jacky after school.

3 months, 11 days! :)

god bless america.

9/11/01 :(

i love and miss you bebe!

school tomorrow ._.
3 months and 12 days! :) :) :) :) :) <3

i must keep moving ahead 'cause my life belongs to the other side behind the great ocean's waves.

i hate school already, i just wanna be done! i dont get math at all anymore what kinda sucks alot. i just HAAAAAAATE english class here, the way the teacher talks is pissing me off. even people who are not used to perfect american english say its horrible. im gonna freak out in that class some time this year, thats for sure haha. i was at my dads for the night, didnt really do anything there, just helped my cousin apply for an exchange year today. now im home alone and watching titanic, such a stuuuuuuuupid movie but theres nothing else on that would be better. im probably gonna go to bed sometime soon, pretty tired. sooo good night world :)

everybody gets what they deserve.

first day of school went pretty good and got a two hour delay tomorrow haha thts pretty nice. i was watching tv and i just passed out haha it was just one day of school and i'm soo tired already. i'm gonna go to bed pretty early and hopefully can sleep earlier than yesterday. don't have alot to say today, soo good night world.

just tell me we can do this, tell me we're gonna make it through.

f ck.

i cant read or send any messages on facebook, i have no idea why but this is fricken pissing me off! it seems to work for everybody else except for me, uuuuuuuuuuuuuugh. first day of school tomorrow yay ..NOT. 

went to cologne to visit my moms aunt and uncle today and saw my godmother after like um ..well a very long time, was nice. i'm just gonna watch a movie now and try to go to bed early. have to get up at 6 tomorrow, but hopefully gonna be a good day.

but you can't complete me, he's the part that is missing,

last night was pretty fun! :) we played 'sing star' for a while haha and then watched 'sex and the city 1' and started the 2nd one but we were too tired so we finished it this morning. i didnt really do anything else today, just gonna try to finish the 2nd book for school later. its hottt out and i just wanna sleep haha. 3 more days and school starts again ._.

i know i'll always be the best thing you never had.

had a doctors appt this morning, had to get my eyes checked again with contacts in aaaaand well i still need them. glad i can sleep in again tomorrow, i'm kinda really tired for some reason. going to vivis tomorrow night with jacky and we're gonna watch 'sex and the city' aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaall night haha, hopefully gonna be fun.
the nail on my big toe is gone now, sooooooooooooooo gross! it feels weird and looks well just gross.
i wish i would've started school today if it means i'm back in america..
i'm gonna pass out pretty soon, good night.