goodbye for now.

so guys, im gonna stop blogging for a while. i dont know if im gonna delete it completely after that or start blogging again ..im not sure yet but whatever haha. 

anyways thanks for reading and stuff :)

it's a bow!

my face looked horrible from that angle haha

saw that today and thought it was really cute so i tried it haha gotta improve it a little but it was the first time so it worked pretty good i'd say ;D

had no school today, just an doctors appt this afternoon. but school tomorrow so just watching tv for a while and then i'm off to bed. 

sweet dreams ;)

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Distance isn't for the fearful, it's for the bold. It's for those who are willing to spend a lot of time alone in exchange for a little time with the one they love. It's for those knowing a good thing when they see it, even if they don't see it nearly enough.

..you dont even know how much i miss you right now.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HNfaE_mTczM

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vivis yesterday was fuuun :) ..but black swan is still the weirdest movie ive ever seen, it makes me feel like really uncomfortable hahah yeah i dont  know. i dont like that movie, weirdweirdweird.

stupid dumb ass stupid shit dumb stupid shit day.

niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiight :/

guess how much i love you..

Little Nutbrown Hare who was going to bed, held on tight to Big Nutbrown Hare's very long ears.

He wanted to be sure that Big Nutbrown Hare was listening.

"Guess how much I love you", he said.

"Oh, I don't think I could guess that," said Big Nutbrown Hare.

"This much," said Little Nutbrown Hare, stretching out his arms as wide as they could go.

Big Nutbrown Hare had even longer arms. "But I love you this much," he said.  Hmm, that is a lot, thought Little Nutbrown hare.

"I love you as high as I can reach," said Little Nutbrown Hare.

"I love you as high as I can reach," said Big Nutbrown Hare.  That is very high, though Little Nutbrown Hare.  I wish I had arms like that.

Then Little Nutbrown Hare had a good idea.  He tumbled upside down and reached up the tree trunk with his feet.  "I love you all the way up to my toes" he said.

"And I love you all the way up to your toes." said Big Nutbrown Hare, swinging him up over his head.

"I love you as high as I can hop!" laughed Little Nutbrown Hare, bouncing up and down.

"But I love you as high as I can hop," smiled Big Nutbrown Hare - and he hopped so high that his ears touched the branches above.

Thats good hopping, thought Little Nutbrown Hare.  I wish I could hop like that.

"I love you all the way down the lane as far as the river," cried Little Nutbrown Hare.

"I love you across the river and over the hills," said Big Nutbrown Hare.

That's ver far, thought Little Nutbrown Hare.  He was almost too sleepy to think anymore.

Then he looked beyond the thornbushes, out into the big dark night.  Nothing could be farther than the sky.

"I love you right up to the moon," he said, and closed his eyes.

"Oh, that's far," said Big Nutbrown Hare.  "That is very, very far."  Big Nutbrown Hare settled Little Nutbrown Hare into his bed of leaves.

He leaned over and kissed him good night.

Then he lay down close by and whispered with a smile, "I love you right up to the moon - and back."

hahaha so cute :D
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sooo glad its friday. have a good weekend, everybody :)

im sorry but i really haaaaaaaate spanish! but at least i did my homework for once, it took forever tho. haha oh well its done now. 

so glad its friday tomorrow, i need a weekend haha and im lucky and its a four day weekend! :D gonna go to vivis saturday and stay over night there, then dinner at my grandmas sunday and hopefully gonna go out with my girls monday night. 

3 weeks until my birthday, yaaaaay haha :)

i only miss you when i'm breathing.

41 people visited my blog yesterday! thats awesome haha, thanks guys! :D keep on reading ;)

school kinda sucked today, gotta analyse or interpret or whatever a diary entry from columbus in fricken spanish! i dont even understand the text haha gotta have that till friday soo cant wait for tomorrow afternoon when i have to write that beast.. and have to re-do a summary (in spanish also) cause he thinks everybody copied from everybody. eeh yeah gotta write that til next tuesday. grr i HATE spanish class haha.

time for desperate housewives and new girl in a bit  ..and of course cuddle with my two new cuddle buddies:

sooo cute haha :)

 good night, world

happy valentine's day ;)

hope you all enjoy your day with your loved ones ;)
had to drive after school today and when i got home i had the cutest package waiting for me haha :)
time for the new season of two and a half men now and bed time after that. good night!

distance taught me how to love someone stronger.

so i'm pretty sure i'll be back in wisconsin during the summer :) ..nothing is really set right now, but i'm 95% sure it will work haha let's hope so. 

i'm so lucky to have a family that supports me and helps me to reach my goals and makes my dreams come true. thank you so much!

never give up on something you really want. it's difficult to wait but it's even harder to regret.

watched movies today, enjoyed the sun for a while and layed in bed the rest of the day haha. driving tomorrow with my dad and then second semester starts monday, yaaay not. i really gotta get my grades up haha. 

hope everybody has a good weekend! :)

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stupid dumb ass shitty day today ._. not only did i have to come back for 8th and 9th hour today for a stupid presentation on how i quote right (..eeeeeeh.) but i sucked at driving today too. had to drive on the autobahn for the first time.. oooooh gosh that didnt go so well.

but at least its friday tomorrow. getting report cards and the first semester is finally over. 

aand after school vivi and i gonna go out for lunch and going to the movies to see 'the vow', oh im excited! :D

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watched the most boring movie ever in german class today haha and gonna watch the rest of it the first 2 hours tomorrow but after that just got one hour of history, then i gotta drive for 1 1/2 hours and after that i pretty much have like the whole day off haha this is soo nice :)

take care.

i'm still laughing so hard every time i see this hahaha so great. 

had the last two hours off today that was preee nice, only got 3 hours of school thursday and friday and maybe even get the last 2 hours off tomorrow :)

watched 'pearl harbor' in english class today, had a spanish test and i forgot to study for that sooo thats probably gonna be a f.. oh weeeell haha. 

watching cheerleading videos ..oh i should really start to at least work out again haha.

have a good tuesday my lovely readers.

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dont let me fall.

vivi came over after school for a while :) and thats about all i did today haha but it was kinda a long day and im tiiiiiiiired. good night, germany & have a good day, america.

i think this weekend has been the most boring of my life.. jeez i didnt do anything at all haha. now i'm gonna give up my sleep tonight and watch the super bowl for a while! :D it starts here at midnight, oh i'll be soo tired tomorrow haha. 

it's still freezing out, i believe it's like -4 in fahrenheit. i don't wanna leave the house till it gets nice and warm out hah. i wish spring would get here already. 

i hope you all had a good weekend :)

The only people you need in your life, are the people that need you in theirs

just some tumblr quotes.. blaah.

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today sucks. end of story. but hope you all have a good weekend :)

all that i need is you.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aBZP6E7Lwto&feature=BFa&list=FLEL1tl6thCgATOobnqurj0A&lf=mh_lolz

:) ♥

driving today kinda sucked. my grades kinda suck too ..i skipped a year and at least i'm still passing but i really could do better haha so i'll work on that next semester.

shower, study, sleep. good night loves.

i want to be your idea of beautiful.

snowboarding, easter 2010

dress up days, summer 2010

italy, summer 2009

berlin, fall 2009

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started my 12 page paper for history on the civil rights movement in the us. oh what a joy it already is .. pfff.

haha but i should probably finish the first page today, soo enjoy your sunday :)

successful day? i'm thinking so :)

went shopping with vivi in dortmnd today, it was reaaaally fun but i'm exhausted haha.

now time for some tea and movies, have a good weekend everybody! 

holding out for a hero.

soo ive been doing a lot of thinking today and yesterday, this is gonna be kinda weird haha okay. im not sure if you guys are gonna understand what im trying to say but whatever. i just feel like my two worlds dont seem to fit together very well anymore. i cant really find the right words to explain this but i pretty much live in the future where i can be who i wanna be again and be with the one i wanna be with and i just hope that this 1 1/2 years go by fast. but on the other hand im just soo fricken scared to leave everyone and stuff. 

there are days when everything is fine and then there are some days that im just scared we arent gonna work out and oooh its just not a good day today haha i feel like im not doing anything right and i dont know, i feel wrong. 

watched 'footlose' on the plane back to germany and just love this song. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5wHwwHuuLuM&feature=bf_prev&list=LLEL1tl6thCgATOobnqurj0A&lf=mh_lolz

good night.

The best love is the kind that awakens the soul; that makes us reach for more, that plants the fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds. That's what I hope to give you forever.

laying in bed, sick and watching the notebook. gonna bawl my eyes out like always haha. this weekend kinda sucked, ive been crying on and off all day, did some homework and yeah ..such a great way to spent a sunday. 

oh and i dyed my hair today ..i shouldnt have done that, doesnt look how i wanted it to, awesomeee.

what a great FUCKING day. 

i'd rather see you happy even if i'm not.

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eeh, i feel just great haha. im getting sick, my voice is gone and my throat hurts really bad. 

 and last night was ..interesting, i'd say haha. 

time for bed pretty soon, so so so so tired. good night everybody, hope youre having a good weekend.

distance is never an issue as long as there is commitment.

what am i supposed to do when my heart's in two places?

today is just one of those days and it just started.. i wish i could turn the time back and it would be last january, i miss it a lot.. im home for over a week now and it feels like so much longer. i hope i can come back very soon.

skyped with cody for almost 5 hours last night, felt so good to "see" him again :)